Aside from literature
and the time period it was written in, it further continued into connections in
my current life. I grew up with maternal grandparents from an entirely
different culture than that of modern American culture, thus a lot of strict
rules and regulations were placed upon me growing up. For a long time, I
struggled with the thought that I never have and never will be able to live up
to their expectations, and tried incessantly to please them or find a way to
make them proud and to make them realize that I was not a horrible and
detestable being. As I grew older, I learned to realize and accept that I will never please them or ever
be perfect in their eyes, so why try? I realized that the most important thing
was that I felt good enough for myself and I knew that in comparison to others
around me (not to toot my own horn but), I was actually not the runt of the
litter; I was actually different in the best way possible. It no longer
mattered to me if my family did not dwell in modern society and American
culture; I knew the difference and I was proud of myself whilst knowing I had a
wonderful mixture of both cultures.
What furthered my knowledge about
my situation is really learning about
the different time periods because not only did my maternal family grow up in a
different culture, they were raised in a completely different time period, as
well. A time period that had different familial standards, societal standards,
and educational standards. Who was I to blame them for expecting me to be
certain ways? They literally lived
a completely different life; a much more conservative life as opposed to modern
American liberal and unorthodox society. No matter how hard I tried or will try,
I will never shake them of their beliefs, opinions, or values-- those are hard wired in them. This
helped me to not only open my eyes, but to truly understand what has been
attempted to be forced and imposed upon me since childhood. I no longer hold an
angry stigma (at least not all the
time) towards my maternal family because I can truly understand their
perception by stepping outside of my own, which is the key to successful
communication. Although perception was discussed in a different lecture, it was
this specific lecture that made everything click together in my head. It has
helped me accept that I am not immoral or miscreant, I am normal. I have
accepted that I have always tried to be my very best me but still tried to
please others, and I learned that I will never be able to please every single
person around me, especially not them. I was judged by them based on their own
values and opinions, not by my own nor the morals and values of the environment
I live in and was given no flexibility; leaving me to feel inadequate and led
me to be very scrupulous (which is not always a bad thing if done for the
right reasons). It is best to be proud of who I am and know that I have taken
all of the morals and values my maternal family has helped me develop while also
blending them with my own time period and my own culture that I am living in.
Just like a work of literature, I, too, am a product of my time period.
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